rough days

We all have them as parents. They suck. Everyone hates them. We have had a lot of them lately. Between kids being sick, schedules changing, lack of sleep, and being ultra busy the last couple of weeks have had some rough days.
Addie has gotten the brunt of the illness that has swept through our house. Between puking last week and now having a ear infection and bad cough her mood swings make her seem bi-polar. And that mixed with the terrible twos has made for many unpleasant moments. She has been taking extra long baths because I feel like that is the only time I know she will be happyfor a extended period.
Alex has been busy with school, gymnastics, friends, and of course snowboarding ( when we had snow) and I think he is just getting worn out. Usually by Wednesday or Thursday he is over tired and a crab. Which means he will be a grouch and no one will want to be around him. It also means more fights between the boys. Which means more headaches for me!
I had rough days. I hate when I stare at the clock praying for bedtime to come. I think about all the people who can not have kids and would love to be in my shoes....to have rough days to complain about. I think about people who have lost kids and would take a million rough days to have them back. It makes me feel like I am selfish. Here I have 3 amazing kids, I had 3 easy pregnancies, and some days I just can not wait for that ME time.
I dont think I should feel like that because I think it is only natural as a parent. I think we all hit the wall sometimes and just need out space. I think my kids are like that too. I think there are times that they want and need to be away from me and either playing by themselves or hanging out with someone else.
Today has been a semi-rough day with addie being sick. And since it is Wednesday we will see how alex is when he gets home from school. For now I plan on relaxing a little, and then baking some cupcakes and making dinner.